Well it struck me last night while I was sat on the coffee table (the sofa's too soft) playing the acoustic (that Matt severely detuned, freak!) and working on stuff that singers apparently work on like intonation, breathing and phrasing or summat, that I was actually singing and working on songs that are being performed in front of total strangers but have come out of the depths of my head.
Now I've only been writing songs since about May 2007 (ish) so it's not actually that long in the grand scheme of things. But I think I've written about 25 or so and so far about 12 of those have been worked on by the band and / or me and Matt acoustically (that a word then?) and have been met with surprisingly good reviews. Hmmm, how bizarre. More so is the fact that we've now started to properly record these songs and the first batch that went on MySpace (Blank written by Nic) are still receiving good feedback.
This really baffles me as in my head I always thought they were resonable songs but people actually like them and sing them. This is a really odd thing to get to grips with; you spend a few hours over the course of a few days writing a song that's about something that's happened to you or a scenario that inspired you etc and you automatically think (or I do at least) that it's on the lower side of mediocre. But then when you work on it with a band and it becomes an actual song it starts to take on a life of it's own and you find yourself in the shower singing it.
Anyway, what I'm trying to get across is that it's a good / odd / proud feeling when you've put something together in your living room that ends up being sang by people at a gig or gets banged on someones iPod. Weird but awesome.